love remains in a different way. (Time Capsule)

The nostalgia pains…

but I don’t wish it was the same~

 

I don’t miss me with you

or the things we used to do;

I don’t miss you or who we used to be,

 

I miss the way you used to spend time with me~

 

and I miss that familiar spot in my heart

that was first shown to you alone.

 

I feel that warm familiarity

shrinking as my new love,

my sometimes only love…

opens even more of my heart.

 

I’ve made the right choice with my heart

but it’s hard to process

when our relationship never finished it’s start.

 

I wish every relationship was

a start to finish whole lifetime.

 

Life would be much more wholesome.

 

~a song, a location, a stir in the winds

can all bring your heart back to me.

 

The moments we shared are

a perfect and precious eternity

locked in a capsule of time.

What we had was perfect…

 

would it have continued so if we never stopped?

As fate has it, probably not.

 

Alas, I’m on my new journey.

A new capsule of time

that shall allow me to explore in greater depth.

 

❤ Jessa

 

*this poem is about feeling the pang of nostalgia for what we once had and loved. when we feel nostalgia though, we do not have to act on it or even be actively missing someone. we can simply miss and long for those precious moments shared. those moments that forever remain untainted and perfect because they are an unchanging part of the past. forever locked in perfect memory.

oh to be able to re-watch my life…

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Guilt-Free 

When I spend too long waiting, 

I lose inspiration. 

Too many thoughts flow all at once. 

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Poetry is like sex to me

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First thing in the morning,

before I have time to fire up my brain,

I like to fire up my heart. 

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I use my heart to control my body. 

.

I can feel my fingers tingling 

with sweet sensation

of foreplay…

.

Waiting,

to be used. 

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The less I think about what to do

.

the easier, better and more natural it is. 

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I find comfort in being alone in my head,

first thing in the morning especially;

It allows me time to do what I love-

Guilt Free

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Awareness (Living Closer)

It’s interesting that now the more I am in your presence, 

the more anxiety I feel. 

It’s as if I now have more opportunity,

to fail. 

.

Living with you is a delight and a frieght,

for I sit at home and dream of ways to be ‘right’…

to be more perfect for you;

but you never asked me to change, 

did you?

.

So all this anxiety and fear in my head

comes upon me

because of my own

negative disposition

to self assessment. 

.

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Foreign Thoughts

I just experienced the strangest thought…

.

not strange, I suppose not.

but it was a foreign thought.

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I thought to myself as I wrote down some prose

~maybe I should edit or censor myself

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But No. 

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then who would I be?

.

.

Except an ungenuine poet 

unraveling at the seams. 

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❤ Glitterfly Jessa

Serendipity

Luck?

What is it to me?

.

Some call it serendipity,

but to me it’s nothing but make believe.

.

Nothing in life happens by accident or luck.

It’s the following a good idea that struck;

struck a chord of the heart

or intuition per say

and keeps your energy flowing all day.

.

Serependipity does not happen to me,

I create the good fortune in my life.

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❤ Glitterfly Jessa

Long Distance… Waiting

Dancing around these waves of space

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Patiently waiting

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Keeping in pace

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In pace with

you heart,

my heart

…. the start

.

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The start of us,

the start of something new

.

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Something grand

… the great unfolding of hands

.

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The new sacred dance

.

The dance of two

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The dance of me and you

.

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And our hearts ever staying true

As we do what we must do

until the moment comes,

when we see our plans through

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And we find forever,

for just me and you.

 

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