Free Flow Thoughts- Grow caterpillar, grow

I don’t know where to begin,

feeling lost- uncomfortable in my own skin.

Sitting back and analyzing,

unable to find where I de-railed.

.

.

If I can’t find where I de-railed

how can I expect to re-rail?

.

…but do we have to start where we left off?

is it not possible,

to create and de-rail

at any time-

unbennounced to the world?

.

There is a hiatus,

a learning curve,

a gap

.

between what I was

and what I am yet to be.

.

.

I am like a fetus in the womb-

the start of something unknown

for many years after their arrival.

.

No longer an egg,

a sperm,

or an idea

but becoming…

becoming of their own self, 

before knowledge of self.

.

.

I am like a larvae in a cocoon…

past the pain of being a caterpillar-

growing past the pains of being alive

and releasing the fears rooted in survival

and giving it up to the universe.

.

I know I will emerge as I should.

.

.

In these moments of lapse,

in this hiatus of time,

something magical is brewing…

.

on the edge of

what everyone knew me to be,

what they think I will be,

and what I will become.

.

.

There is a shift in the tides.

.

Waiting,

unleashing,

resurrecting

all past,

present,

and future

aliases

of the same

me

 

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