Wheres my non-judgment zone?

Looking at the life i used to own
Everything feels so different now.
Standing with people i know and have loved
Feeling insecure… I cant keep my worlds separate anymore
People are getting close to meeting people and realizing im gone
Ive been gone so long, nothing feels like home.
Living in a few different worlds
Letting none into my reality.
Worried to step back and abandon half my life
But theres always some half that will understand…
Once you’ve passed the non-judgment zone
Where is mine for myself?